Ena: I just turned 30, which pretty much sums up my attitude as of late. I live in Los Angeles with my boyfriend, our cat Penny, and our dog Cosmo. After receiving my MA in Composition and Rhetorical Theory this past June, I have been struggling with how (and where) to take the next step. I have what some would consider a great job, though it is not something that I am particularly passionate about which makes it difficult for me to show up every day.
My lack of passion for my job is one of the things that prompted me to start what Bina and I are calling our project; attempting to inspire passion in our lives by dressing like we already have some. My poor adherence to style trends and indifferent attitude toward my appearance really is astounding as I have been absolutely obsessed with clothes, models, and designers for as long as I can remember. It’s hard to say why my internal love of all things fashion never translated to my outward appearance. I’m sure it mostly has to do with fear of failure, but I’ll leave the analysis to my shrink.
Alright, so more about me I guess. I was raised in Seattle and have been in California since 2001, living in Monterey and San Francisco before settling (for now) in Los Angeles. I received my BA in Linguistics which is probably completely useless, but which I find phenomenally interesting. I am generally a very happy, albeit passionless, person who loves her friends, family, and pets, and who is trying to figure out how to take the next step…in a really great shoe.
Bina: Raised in Fort Worth, TX by a Japanese mother and East-Indian father, I always thought I was destined for the metropolitan cities. In high school, I was your typical go-getter good girl. I was Valedictorian, Vice President of the class, Prom Queen, Drill Team Lieutenant, newspaper columnist, etc. After I graduated from the University of TX at Austin with my “certainly not useless” BFA in Acting, I packed up and moved to New York City. I had a blast there – starting a theatre company and performing regionally and in the city as much as possible. I loved it. After 5 years and the intense end to my first real long-term relationship, I decided I wanted to try something and somewhere new so I packed up and moved again – this time to LA.
I discovered that acting for TV and Film wasn’t for me. I didn’t enjoy it or the technical side of things and I really wasn’t that good at it either. So, around my 30th birthday, I decided to stop pursuing acting as a career. Growing up, my two passions were always acting and dancing, and when I stopped acting, I think a little piece of me died. I lost my Passion.
Now I work for a major movie studio in Los Angeles. It’s on the business side of things and I love the atmosphere and perks. But I’m not really passionate about it. And that’s where this blog comes in. I need to rediscover my lust for life. I have a loving family, awesome friends, two very puppy-like kitties, and a rather spacious apartment in southern California. But I’ve been dragging, struggling with bouts of depression and anxiety for a couple of years now, and my appearance has shown it. I’ve had it. This is my life – time to start dressing like I’m living it again.